It all started innocently enough. At least it seemed innocent at the
time. Lesley , my wife, had been away on business all week. Having
nothing to do on a Thursday night, I decided to go to the club.
Wilton Hills Country Club is the kind of place people like me aspire to
but rarely attain. For all my hard work, I could never have become a
member without Lesley ’s income and connections. It was old money, and I
Carol worked in Lesley ’s department. The daughter of Lesley ’s
employer, Carol considered Wilton Hills a second home . I met Carol
shortly after Lesley had me admitted as a member. We engaged
good-natured teasing about the difference in our ages. Nearly twice
Carol ’s age, she called me an “old man,” while I ribbed her about being
That night was no different as Carol and I bantered about the relative
merits of the music of our respective generations. I mentioned a record
I had been listening to the previous night.
“Record?” she said. “You mean CD, don’t you?”
“No,” I said. “A record. A vinyl disc that’s played on a phonograph. Can
you say that? Pho-no-graph?”
“I know what a record is. My parents have some. Only senior citizens
actually listen to them anymore.”
I gave her a frosty look but laughed with her anyway.
The evening wore on with more of our usual banter. As Carol got up to
leave, I said, “You better learn to respect your elders, or somebody’s
going to give you a good spanking one of these days, little girl.”
She glared at me and smiled on her way out the door.
I picked up Lesley at the airport the next afternoon. As she walked down
the ramp from the plane, I noticed again what an imposing figure she cut
in her tailored business suit and pumps. A briefcase holding papers that
I knew represented a deal worth millions to her company swung absently
in her hand. Her sunglasses gave her an aloofness that made one wish she
would deign to give her attention for just a moment. I had only heard
the word used in reference to men, but the one that came to mind as she
strode toward me was dashing.
Lesley kissed me on the cheek as she handed me her briefcase.
“How was your week, dear?”
“Fine,” I said. “A bit lonely without you. How did things go in Chicago
She touched my face and smiled. “Very well indeed. We were prepared to
go to eight fifty , but by the time I was done, they were happy to take
six and a quarter.”
We picked up her bags and drove home . Lesley said she was in the mood
to celebrate. She had gotten some shopping in while in Chicago and
wanted to show off her new dress. She suggested a new bistro that
offered live music and dancing after dinner.
Lesley changed into the dress she had found at a vintage clothing store
near Lincoln Park . It was a shirtwaist in blue-green silk. The stiff
collar snapped up in back. A starched crinoline added a fullness to the
skirt and her hips that was magnetic. As she sat at the vanity table
brushing her hair and putting on her pearls, I considered the
transformation that had taken place in a few short hours. Where she was
cool and aloof in her business suit, Lesley was the picture of warmth in
this dress from the fifties. One thing remained constant. She was
powerful. I stifled a chuckle as the image came into my head: Donna Reed
Over dinner, Lesley told me stories of how she had driven the deal home
. She laughed as she recounted how the president of TenCorp practically
whimpered as she set out a laundry list of the things that were wrong
with her takeover target.
I picked at the nouvelle cuisine that was artfully arranged on my plate.
I was hoping for something more traditional and substantial, a good
steak perhaps, and said so. As the band made its way to the small stage,
Lesley told me to eat up. She wanted to dance. She told me I was a “good
boy,” as the lat julienned bite went into my mouth.
About that time, Carol came in. She spotted us right away and came over
to say hello. Lesley and Carol had become fast friends when Carol joined
the department. Lesley asked her to join us . I excused myself and left
the two of them to talk for a few minutes.
As I returned, I saw them laughing. Lesley gave me a cool look as I sat
down again. I didn’t know what that was all about, but I decided I
should watch my step.
When the music started, I was disappointed. I was looking forward to
some cool jazz. This band obviously played for a younger audience. I
balked when Lesley asked me to dance. Nearly ten years my junior, Lesley
was enjoying the music immensely. I told her I couldn’t dance to this
stuff. Carol started her digs about my age again.
I restrained myself as long as I could, then finally blurted out,
“Children should be seen and not heard.”
Lesley called the server over and asked for the check. I was still
reaching for my wallet when Lesley handed the young woman a couple of
bills, which must have included a substantial tip, judging from the
“ Richard . It’s time to go,” she said in her clear, powerful voice, as
she strode toward the door.
I had no choice but to follow. I tried to say something to Carol , but
nothing intelligent came out of my mouth. Finally, I shrugged and
trotted after Lesley .
When I reached the parking lot, Lesley had already unlocked the car and
was getting behind the wheel. I slid into the passenger seat and she
I wanted to apologize. The set of Lesley ’s jaw and the whiteness of her
knuckles on the wheel told me now would not be a good time. The
twenty-minute drive home lasted hours.
Lesley wasted no time as we entered the door. I had just taken off my
jacket when she wheeled about, hands on her hips.
“What have you got o say for yourself?” Her scowl told me everything I
needed to know.
I stood there stammering. I found myself trembling as my mind raced
trying to remember how to form words.
“I swear. It was like being out with a five-year-old. Maybe I should
have ordered from the children’s menu and cut up the meat for you. And
don’t you ever speak to Carol that way again. Not only is she my boss’s
daughter, but she is my friend.” Her wagging finger, inches from the tip
of my nose, emphasized her point.
“Well. Speak up,” she said.
My mouth moved, but nothing came out.
Lesley grabbed my ear. I was shocked as she dragged me to a corner of
the living room.
“Since you aren’t in any mood to speak, you can stand there and think
about it while I change out of this dress. It’s obvious I have no need
for it tonight.”
I stood there for ages working on an apology. I couldn’t believe I was
standing there. Forty years old and standing in the corner like a
toddler. But Lesley was really upset, and I needed her forgiveness. I
wished I hadn’t had so much coffee at dinner.
“ Richard . Come here.”
The call from the bedroom sent a chill up my spine. My knees shook as I
made my way up the stairs. I found Lesley seated at her vanity brushing
her hair. She had changed into a simple white blouse and full dark
skirt. She had rolled the sleeves of the blouse to her elbows. Her
pearls still rested elegantly about her neck.
I stood in the doorway, unsure whether to speak. After what seemed an
eternity, but couldn’t have been more than a minute, Lesley turned to
“Come here Richard ,” she said pointing to a spot in front of her.
I moved slowly to the place she indicated, become more anxious with each
step. My heart fluttered and rose to my throat. My stomach was a tight
She had hardly spoken to me since my comment to Carol . Each time, she
had called me “ Richard .” Normally, she would call me Rick , as is my
preference. This use of my given name indicated the state of her anger.
However, it was nothing to the fire I noticed in her eyes. I could tell
she was furious, and it terrified me.
Lesley rose to confront me. In her heels she was as tall as me, and
maybe a little more so. As she spoke, nearly nose-to-nose with me, she
seemed to grow even more, or maybe I was shrinking.
“Now that you’ve had some time to think about it, have you got any
excuse for the way you behaved tonight?”
“I’m sorry, Lesley . You know how Carol gets my goat.”
“Gets your goat! Gets your goat! You embarrass me like that, and that’s
all you can say for yourself? What about the way you grumbled through
dinner? That was Carol ’s fault too, I suppose?”
I stood there trembling, trying to stammer out some other explanation. I
did manage to get out another “I’m sorry,” before Lesley sat down again
“ Richard , your behavior tonight was intolerable. If this was the first
time, I might mark it up to a bad day at the office. But it’s not, and
it’s about time I did something about it. Tonight you are going to get
the spanking you’ve needed for a long time. If you’re going to act like
a toddler, by God, I’m going to treat you like on.”
The wagging of her hairbrush, which until then I hadn’t noticed was
still in her hand, emphasized her words. She set the brush in her lap
and started to unfasten my belt.
“ Lesley !” I whined, reaching to remove her hands.
She swiftly slapped my hands, scooped up her hairbrush, and delivered
three sharp blows to the seat of my pants. Shock more than pain caused
me to jump. A second or two later, I realized that the shock had
combined with the effects of the coffee, and a small damp spot was
cooling in my briefs. I desperately hoped Lesley would not notice.
Unruffled by brief resistance, Lesley returned to her task. I knew
better than to interfere again. She unbuckled my belt and undid the
buttons and hook closing my suit trousers. I said a silent prayer as
Lesley worked the zipper down. Apparently nothing seemed out of the
ordinary, as she lowered my pants to my ankles without comment.
Perspiration formed on my brow as I realized she had lowered my pants
but not my underwear. As I debated what to do Lesley lifted my
shirttails to get at the waistband of my briefs.
“ Richard Edward Stephens !” My blood ran cold. “Just look at yourself!”
Lesley stood and grabbed my ear. She gave it a twist as she dragged me
toward the bathroom. I nearly fell, hobbled as I was by my pants.
“I can’t believe you,” she said with disdain.
She stood me in front of the toilet and whisked down my underpants.
“Go ahead. Let’s see if you can at least finish like a big boy. Does
Mommy have to hold it so everything goes in the potty?”
“I can do it myself,” I grumbled. Her hairbrush connected with my
“Don’t talk back. Go on then.”
Try as I might, nothing happened.
“Fine then.” Lesley flipped own the seat, spun me around, and plopped me
down on it. “Since we don’t have a splashguard, you can just hold that
down between your legs until you’re done.”
I could feel the blush rising in my cheeks as I complied. I stared at
the floor as Lesley stood over me in amused contempt, waiting.
Seconds passed, then minutes. Lesley tapped her foot but did not budge.
Eventually, caffeine conquered shame.
“There. He does know how to use the potty,” Lesley mocked. “Come along,”
she said, taking me by the ear once more. I shuffled along behind.
Lesley took her seat by the vanity and placed a towel she had grabbed
along the way across her lap. “Just in case you have any more
accidents,” she said with a smirk.
Color rose in my face again, but I was so cowed by this point that I
offered no resistance as Lesley took my wrist and pulled me across her
As I looked upside down at the necktie dangling in front of my face and
the knot of clothes gathered about the feet I saw on the far side of
Lesley ’s legs, I knew I must have made a ridiculous picture. I hadn’t
been in such a position since I was ten.
Whether from the air conditioning or from nerves, I felt a chill as
Lesley drew my shirttail above my buttocks. I tensed as she rested the
flat of the hairbrush there.
“Unbelievable. Just unbelievable. What a sight you are. A grown man
about to get a spanking like a little boy. I suppose it should come as
no surprise. After all, if you aren’t too big to wet your pants, you
certainly aren’t too big to spank.”
I groaned in shame, feeling my blush go from my face all the way to my
toes. Fire shot through my lower cheeks as the hairbrush came crashing
“Honestly! Peeing your pants like a two-year-old. Was the little boy
“ Lesley . It was just all that coffee and the surprise and…”
“Quiet!” She punctuated the command with another stinging slap. “I’m
speaking to you, Richard . Or should I call you Dickey ? That sounds
much more appropriate for someone who still needs to be in training
pants, don’t you think?”
My mind raced, trying to come up with an acceptable answer without
sounding like I was admitting I needed trainers. Apparently, it was a
rhetorical question, because she went on.
“There are going to be some changes around here, Dickey. This may be the
first spanking you get from me, but I can assure you it won’t be the
last. I’m sick and tired of your whining and complaining every time we
go somewhere. Remember when we went shopping last week? All day long,
‘Another dress shop? Do we have to? Is it time to go yet? Can’t I go to
Sears and look at tools?’ I had to practically drag you through the
Lesley laid into me with ferocity. She beat a steady rhythm that
increased in pace as she recalled our shopping trip. I cried out and my
hand shot back to protect my tender backside. Lesley simply grabbed my
wrist, pressing it to the small of my back and continued as if nothing
“But Honey…” Another thunderous smack silenced me.
“But Honeeeey,” she mimicked. “Don’t you Honey me, little man. ‘Children
should be seen and not heard.’ Isn’t that what you said? If anyone is
acting like a child, it’s you. And since you insist on acting like a
child, that’s exactly the way I’m going treat you, unless and until you
can show me you know how to behave like a grown up.”
I had given up all pretense of strength by this point, and tears flowed
from my eyes. I babbled incoherent apologies between cries of pain.
“For starters, you won’t be going to the club without me there to
supervise you anymore. I heard all about your little tirade last night
and your parting shot to Carol . Do you have any idea how you
embarrassed her? Do you have any clue how that affects me and my job?
Well, how does it feel little boy? Do you still think spanking is funny?
Are you going to be teasing Carol any more? Or are you going to continue
to jeopardize my career?”
“No. No. NO!” I screeched, as Lesley went to work on the backs of my
thighs. I had thought there could be nothing worse than the fire in my
bottom. Now I was ready to beg Lesley to spank me there again, just to
stop the torture of my legs.
“And there isn’t going to be anymore complaining when we go out. You are
absolutely right. Children should be seen and not heard. And if that
means I have to stick a pacifier in your mouth to stop your whining, by
God, that’s exactly what I’m going to do.”
An image of our trip to Ann Taylor floated through my head. Instead of
the steely glare she had given me, I saw her reach into her purse, pull
out an enormous pacifier, and shove it in my mouth. I had not the
slightest doubt that if she had had one, she would have done exactly
that. Tears turned to sobs as I saw the future unfold before me.
Although I still jumped as each smack sounded a deafening clap through
the room, I no longer fought the spanking. I only wanted it to be over
and to cry and beg Lesley ’s forgiveness. Lesley must have sensed my
defeat. She stopped spanking and stroked my behind, shushing me and
murmuring consoling words.
When my heaving sobs turned to exhausted sniffles, Lesley released my
wrist and eased me off her lap. I buried my face in her skirt and
repeated again and again, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I love you. I’m sorry.”
Lesley stroked my head and whispered, “Hush, Baby. Mommy loves you.”
As I knelt there, limp and overwhelmed, her words were not incongruous.
The spanking had been fierce and born of anger. But the affection Lesley
gave me now was as genuine and tender as any in our time together. I
knew, without doubt, that she loved me and always would. That unreserved
love coupled with the spanking that came before could only be described
as motherly. I felt the punishment I received was as much for my own
good as it was to satisfy Lesley ’s anger.
Lesley stood me up and gently steered me toward the bathroom. She
dampened a washcloth with cool water and washed the tears from my face.
“Now, brush your teeth and go potty. Come back when you’re done, and
I’ll tuck you in.”
I could only nod as I reached for the toothbrush. Lesley kissed me on
the cheek and left me to it.
I found my way back to the bedroom, a zombie on autopilot. I crawled
into bed and quickly rolled onto my side when I realized sleeping on my
back was out of the question. Lesley pulled the covers up around my neck
and bent down to kiss me. I noticed she was still dressed.
“Aren’t you coming to bed?” I asked.
“No, Sweetie. I have some things I need to do. I’ll be along in a little
while. You go to sleep now. You’ve had a rough night.”
With that she kissed me on the forehead and turned off the bedside lamp.
I smiled as she padded toward the door, and I drifted quickly in a world
of dreams. I didn’t even notice when Lesley closed the door, leaving
just a crack to let in the light from the hall.
My dreams were filled with strange images. Lesley was so tall.
Everything was tall. I felt like Jack in the giant’s castle. Scents of
chocolate chip cookies and fresh baked bread mingled with Lesley ’s
Chanel No. 5.
Lesley wore the outfit she had had on at dinner the night before. Around
her waist she wore a crisp frilled apron. I stood looking up at her as
she tended something on the stove, a large wooden spoon in her hand.
Lesley took notice of me and turned. Her face bore an expression that
was half frown, half amusement.
“Just look at you,” she said.
I looked down to see splotches of mud all over me. My knees were scraped
and my hands were filthy. There was a large dark stain on the front of
“That’s what I get for sending you outside unsupervised,” she sighed.
Lesley grasped my shoulders and turned me around. Ushering me from the
kitchen with a swat from the wooden spoon, she said, “Let’s go see if
there’s a little boy under all that mud.”
Once in the bathroom, Lesley started the bath water running. After
adjusting it to her satisfaction, she lifted my arms up and pulled my
shirt over my head. She knelt down to take off my shoes. A curious frown
played across her lips as she removed my socks. She unbuttoned my
shorts, and her frown grew deeper.
“This mud is mostly dry, but your shorts are soaked. Can you tell me why
that is, hmm?”
I didn’t know. The last thing I remembered was standing in the kitchen
watching Lesley cook. A dozen tales of bullies and big dogs and puddles
flashed through my head. All I could do was stand there shaking my head,
my lower lip quivering.
Lesley pulled down my shorts, confirming what she already knew.
“And here I thought you were a big boy. Shame on you.” She had a scowl
on her face, but did I detect a hint of a smile in her tone?
Lesley skimmed down my underpants, picked me up, and plunked me down in
the tub. She picked up my dirty clothes. When she got to the underpants,
she made a face and gave me a sharp look.
I busied myself with the tub toys as Lesley gathered my things and put
them in the hamper. I was making tidal waves crash over the boats when
Lesley knelt down and pushed her sleeves up.
She dipped a washcloth in the water and soaped it heavily. She roughly
applied it to my face and neck. I gasped and shook my head. Some suds
got in my mouth, and I sputtered and spit to rid myself of the awful
Lesley efficiently scoured me from head to toe. I did my best to ignore
her and race my boats. She regained my full attention when she reached
between my legs to wash my privates. I nearly jumped out of the tub when
she pushed a finger back to scrub my bottom hole.
A quick shampoo and it was time to get out of the water. I begged to be
allowed to play while Lesley snapped open an enormous towel. In a tone
that brooked no argument, Lesley told me to stand up. She wrapped the
towel around me, somehow gathering it up out of the water. She helped me
out of the tub and onto the fluffy bath mat, where she briskly toweled
Lesley told me to wait right where it was as she rummaged through the
closet. She emerged with a potty chair, which she set down in front of
“I want you to go potty before we get you dressed again,” she said
“I’m too big to use that,” I said.
“You’re not too big to potty in your pants,” she replied.
“I’m not gonna use that potty. I won’t. I won’t.”
“Suit yourself,” she said, picking me up again.
She carried me to the room I knew to be our guest room. When we entered,
I saw it was decorated for a small boy. A single bed with a racing car
bedspread was placed against the wall. A short rail hooked under the
A chest of drawers dominated another wall. There was a deep matching
shelf mounted to the wall above. The chest was somewhat more than waist
high on Lesley . I could not understand the purpose of the strap that
ran from front to back across the top of the dresser.
Lesley set me down atop the bureau and reached up to the shelf. Her hand
came down with a folded white cloth. I knew immediately what she
“No!” I screamed.
Lesley simply laid me on my back. I flailed about, kicking. “No! No! No!
You can’t! I’m a big boy!”
Lesley snatched up my ankles and gave a stiff smack to my still damp
bottom. I quieted down immediately. I found out too what the strap was
for when Lesley secured it about my middle.
“I can and I will,” she stated. “I gave you a chance to use the potty,
Mr. Peepee Pants . Since you don’t want to use the potty like a big boy,
you must want to be in diapers like a baby. But I’m not going to have
you ruining your clothes or, God forbid, my furniture.”
“I’ll use the potty. I’ll go now. Please, I have to go potty.”
Lesley pointedly ignored me. By this time, she already had the diaper
under me and was smearing thick, sticky ointment on my bottom. She
lowered my legs and coated my small, hairless penis and balls.
“I’ll be good I’ll use the potty. Please Mommy, I have to go!” Mommy?
Where did that come from? This was Lesley , my wife.
She smiled down at me. “Then we better get your diaper on before you
play fireman,” she chuckled, pulling the cloth between my legs.
She pinned the diaper snuggly and reached up to retrieve a plastic
panty. Pink. Why did it have to be pink?
I started kicking again. “I’m not a girl! I don’t wanna wear pink! Don’t
put that on. I gotta go potty!”
A rap on my thigh and a finger pointed at my lips settled me down for
the moment. Lesley pulled on the plastic pants and slipped them over my
bulging bottom. She unfastened the strap and stood me up. After checking
to see the diaper was safely encased in the protective panty, Lesley set
me on the floor, gave a tap on the seat, and said, “There you go, Little
One. All safe and dry.”
I ran for the bathroom. The knob was high but within reach. I tried to
turn it, but it wouldn’t unlatch. Damn! I thought. Lesley ’s been
telling me to fix this door. I turned and turned the knob. I even kicked
the door a couple of times. Then I suddenly put both hands to the front
of the plastic pants and squeezed. Tears welled up, and I wailed, “Oh
“ Richard !” Lesley yelled.
I bolted up in the bed.
“ Richard ! Look what you’ve done. I thought you were a grown man.
First, last night, you wet your pants, because you were ‘scay-ered.’
Now, you’ve wet the bed. You’re worse than a three-year-old. This bed is
I cringed under her onslaught. I couldn’t say a word. I sat there on the
rapidly cooling sheets thinking how right she was.
“Get up now. I’ve got to get this cleaned up before the mattress is
“I’ll do it, Honey. It’s …”
“Don’t ‘Honey’ me! Go in the bathroom and get out of those wet things.
If you want to help, you can bring me some towels after you strip.”
I went to the bathroom and put my wet things in the laundry. I gathered
some towels and went back to the bedroom. Lesley was getting the last of
the bedding off. An enormous wet stain gave proof to my shame.
Lesley took the towels and began blotting the mattress. “I hope you
didn’t take all the towels. I’ll have to clean you up next.”
“ No , Lesley . There are still some more.”
“Good. Now, go back in there and sit on the toilet. I don’t need any
more accidents.” She looked at the bed again. “Though I can’t imagine
there’s anything left.”
I went back to the bathroom to wait.
Lesley finally came in wearing her robe and threw her nightgown in the
laundry. She started to run the bath.
“Don’t you want to take a shower first, H…”
She gave me a cold stare. “I’ll get my shower. But first, I have to wash
a dirty little boy.”
I blushed so red I thought I’d light up the room.
“Did you potty?” she asked.
“No,” I mumbled. “I don’t have to.”
“Uh huh. Well, you had better not do anything in the tub.”
I almost said something. This was just too much. But I figured it was
best not to make waves.
Lesley bathed me quickly and efficiently. We had a small struggle when
she insisted on washing my hair and got shampoo in my eyes. Her stern
warning and a tap on my cheek settled me down.
She made me sit on the toilet while she showered. I watched her naked
form through the frosted glass doors. She took a towel and dried herself
in the shower. She came out wrapped in the towel picking up another to
dry her hair. She asked again whether I “used the potty.” I hadn’t. She
took note of how I was hunched over with my hands in my lap.
“What’s the matter, Sweetie?” she asked. “Does your tummy hurt?”
“No,” I replied simply.
“Are you sure? You haven’t made a poopie yet. I bet you’ll feel much
better if you do. Why don’t you go ahead and try.”
“No,” I said as firmly as I could manage. “I don’t have to.”
“ Richard , you always make poopies in the morning. I’ve already had to
clean you up twice with peepee accidents. I don’t want to have to do it
all over again with a poopie one.”
I was mortified. She was treating me like a five-year-old who had
forgotten his toilet training. Her words made my erection flag. There
was no denying what I had done, but still…. “Okay, I’ll try,” I said.
I thought Lesley would leave to get dressed then. To my further
humiliation she stood watching me, arms crossed. I turned an even
brighter shade of red as I made an appearance of trying to void my
bowels. I just couldn’t bring myself to let loose in Lesley ’s presence.
After a few minutes, Lesley decided nothing was going to happen. “Oh,
you poor thing. I see your problem now. You’re constipated. We’ll have
to see what we can do about that later. Come along. It’s time we got
Lesley took my hand and led me back to the bedroom. Instead of getting
dressed herself, she went to my dresser. She pulled out a pair of my
baggier shorts, a Mickey Mouse T-shirt we bought years ago on a trip to
Disney World, a pair of tube socks I hadn’t worn in ages, and white
briefs rather than the colored ones I usually wore.
“There you are,” she said, handing me the clothes. “Go on; get dressed.
I’ll be with you in a few minutes.”
I put on the ridiculous ensemble. My reflection in the mirror looked as
silly as I felt. This was an outfit for a kid going to Disney .
Lesley poked her head around her closet door. Why don’t you wear your
canvas boat shoes? They’ll look darling with that. And tuck your T-shirt
in. I’ll not have you going out looking like a slob. Then go downstairs
and get yourself some breakfast. There’s cereal in the cupboard. Don’t
make a mess.”
Great, I thought. Could she have chosen anything to make me look more
juvenile? And who where’s knee socks anymore? I put on the shoes and
tucked my shirt in. I caught another glimpse of myself in the mirror on
my way out the door. I silently moaned. Then it struck me. Going out?
She can’t be serious. That’s just a figure of speech, right?
I went downstairs and looked through the cupboards. The only cereal we
had was Fruit Loops, left over from when my nephew was here. I put the
coffee on and fixed myself a bowl. While the coffee brewed, I sat down
to eat. I thought the cereal was way too fruity and way to sweet. As I
neared the end of the bowl, I was asking myself why we didn’t keep this
in the house more.
Lesley came in and poured herself a cup of coffee. I got up to fix one
for myself. Lesley slapped my hand as I went to pick up the pot.
“No coffee for you, Mister.”
“Ow! But I always have coffee in the morning.”
“’But I always have coffee in the morning,’” she mocked my whining tone.
She even stuck out her lower lip for good measure. “I think after last
night, you need to cut back on the coffee.” I sulked as she got up from
the table. “Careful you don’t trip over that lip,” she said. I realized
my own lip was sticking out, and I sucked it back quickly.
Lesley smiled as she went to the cupboard and pulled out a glass. “We’re
out of orange juice,” I said as she open ed the refrigerator. She
shushed me as she busied herself. I could hear her pouring something,
but I couldn’t see it from my position. She emerged and set a large
glass of milk in front of me. “But Lesley , I hate milk.”
It was less than a slap, but more than a tap. My cheek stung as I
watched Lesley ’s wagging finger. “I know you’re thirsty, and it’s good
for you. It’ll make you grow up big and strong and keep your bones from
getting brittle. Now, drink up, every drop.”
I slowly drank my milk, detesting every swallow. “Come, come now,
Richard . I haven’t got all day. Finish your milk, quickly now.”
I downed the remainder of the glass as fast as I could—a little too
fast. A small stream of milk dribbled out the corner of my mouth. Lesley
shook her head at me when I put down the glass. She picked up her napkin
and held it in front of my mouth, while her other hand cradled the back
of my head. I looked at her, wondering what she was doing.
“Come on, spit,” she said. I stared at her blankly. She shook the napkin
to draw my attention to it. “Spit.”
It dawned on me what she meant. I couldn’t believe it, but the look in
her eyes confirmed how serious she was. I spit onto the napkin. She
wiped my mouth and chin roughly, then brushed a stray droplet from the
front of my shirt.
“Come along, Richard ,” she said, standing up from the table and taking
the breakfast dishes to the sink. “We have shopping to do. You can wash
up when we get home .”
“Okay. Just let me get dressed and we can go,” I said.
“Dressed? You are dressed.”
“I can’t go out looking like this! Just let me go …”
“You look fine. In fact, you’re adorable. Now let’s go.”
I realized she did, in fact, intend to go out. “Okay, just give me a
minute to change, and we can be on our way.”
“I said, come along, Richard . We have a great deal to do today. You are
dressed just fine. You look very cute. Now, let’s go.”
Cute. I hadn’t been “cute” in thirty years. Cute was the last thing I
wanted to be. Handsome, yes. Sexy, of course. But cute? No, absolutely
Lesley grabbed my hand and was pulling me out the door before I knew
what was happening. “ Lesley , can’t I just …”
“ Now , Richard !”
I couldn’t remember the last time Lesley spoke to me like that. She was
in complete control of the situation. She would brook no argument.
We entered the garage and headed toward my car . Lesley snatched my
wrist and pulled me away.
“We’ll take my car today.”
I shrugged. I always welcomed the opportunity to drive Lesley ’s BMW. I
put my free hand on the driver’s door handle, and Lesley slapped it.
“Hey!” I cried.
“Not today. We have a lot to do, and we don’t need to be making a bunch
of your famous side trips. I’ll drive.”
“But I always drive.”
“And don’t whine.”
“I’m not whining.”
“Uh huh. Get in,” she said coldly, pointing to the passenger side.
I walked around and got in the other side. I silently grumbled to myself
and slammed the door. Lesley gave me a hard look. Okay. I liked to stop
for a quick snack or poke around the computer shop while we were out.
But that’s just efficient time management. Right? I crossed my arms as
Lesley backed out of the garage.
I couldn’t help noticing how sharp Lesley looked. To describe, her
outfit didn’t seem all that remarkable. White blouse, straight calf
length, navy skirt, matching cardigan. Casual and feminine. But the two
inch pumps, short pearl necklace, and the French twist into which she
put her hair lent an air of sophistication that made me all the more
aware of my own attire. I stole fleeting glances at her from the corner
of my eye, while I tried to maintain a look that showed my displeasure
at how the morning was going.
Our short drive ended at the mall. Definitely not my favorite place to
spend a Saturday. We got out of the care and started toward the
entrance. Lesley was several yards ahead when she turned around. She
stalked back to me. She gave a sharp smack to my backside and snatched
up my wrist.
I quickly scanned the parking lot for familiar faces, praying nobody
noticed. I glared at Lesley all the way to the doors.
The mall bustled with a crowd of upscale consumers. Sax Fifth Avenue
anchored one end, Lord & Taylor the other. Gucci displayed its treasures
in the middle. The shoppers dressed casually but smartly, making me
acutely aware of my own costume.
Lesley released my wrist and turned me to face her. She looked me over
and smoothed a stray hair down on my head. Satisfied, she addressed me,
“I know you get bored when I’m shopping, and I don’t want you whining
and making things difficult.” I open ed my mouth, but she held up a
finger. “So I want you to go down to the computer store and look around.
I know that will keep you busy for quite a while. If you get thirsty,
you may go to the food court and have lemonade or something, but nothing
with caffeine. And don’t eat anything. I don’t want you spoiling your
lunch with a bunch of junk food. Understand?”
I blushed and prayed nobody was hearing this conversation. “Yes, Lesley
,” I all but moaned.
“Good boy. Now, scoot. I have things to do.”
She gave me a gentle swat on the behind, sending me on my way. I
wandered down the wide hall, glancing in the shops. I saw a suit that
looked nice . I made a mental note to come back.
I found my way to Babbage ’s. I liked coming to this one. It was large
and kept its stock current. I browsed through the new offerings,
figuring out which ones I would like best and what upgrades I might have
to do to make them run fast. I’m not a big fan of video games , but the
demo that was playing looked like a lot of fun. I tried it out and ended
up spending quite a long time playing against the 10 year old boy who
wandered up to have a look. He was dressed much like me, but more
fashionably. I probably would not have spent so much time playing, but I
wanted to win at least one game. I didn’t.
I looked at my watch and was started to see I had been in the shop for
the better part of two hours. I figured I had better go down to the food
court in case Lesley was looking for me. I got there and saw she was
nowhere to be found. I decided to have that drink.
I remembered Lesley ’s admonition, and lemonade did sound good. I went
over to the corndog stand–They always made the best lemonade–and ordered
large one. I also ordered a corndog. I was getting hungry, and I knew
one would only take the edge off and still leave plenty of room.
I put a bead of mustard along the corndog and took it and the lemonade
to the first empty table I could find. The lemonade was cool and not too
sweet. It really hit the spot. I gobbled down the corndog as fast as I
could. I didn’t need another argument with Lesley .
I sucked down the rest of the lemonade and took my trash to the bin. I
pushed it through the slot and brushed away a couple of crumbs from my
shirt. Damn! I must have had mustard on my fingers. Maybe Lesley
I looked around. Still no sign of her. I decided to head back toward
Sax. Along the way I saw that suit again. I went in for a better look.
It was beautifully cut grey, with just a hint of a pinstripe. The wool
was soft as butter. This was definitely on my list. I looked at the
price and confirmed my good taste. It would require some time to justify
it to myself.
I left the clothier and continued on to Sax. I looked around the
fragrance islands and through the women ’s department. No Lesley . I
moved on to lingerie.
“May I help you?” a voice came from behind me.
I turned sharply. I may have jumped. “Uh … No, thank you. I was just
looking for someone.” What is it about the lingerie department that
makes a man as nervous as a cat?
She sales lady looked me up and down. “Mm Hmm,” she murmured with a tone
that implied she didn’t believe me. “Well, if I can help you find
anything, please let me know.”
“Thank you,” I said, and I beat a hasty retreat.
Lesley must have gone on to another store. I made my way back down the
mall, peering into shops I knew she frequented. Still, I did not find
her. Finally, arriving back at the food court, I spotted her on the far
side. She was looking about, craning her neck and standing on tiptoe.
Our eyes met, and hers turned to steel. We approached each other on the
perimeter of the tables.
“Where have you been? I’ve been looking all over for you,” she barked.
“Honey, please. I was just looking for you too.” I kept my voice to just
above a whisper, hoping she would lower hers. Several people nearby had
stopped eating to watch.
“I told you, you could go to computer store and then come here. I did
not give you permission to go gallivanting all over the mall without me.
How was I to know where you were? I was worried sick!”
I shrank. She sounded more like my mother than my wife. More people were
staring, the men looking embarrassed for me, the women not hiding their
“And what’s this?” She pointed to the mustard stain on my shirt. “I told
you not to eat anything; you’d spoil your lunch.”
“Err …” I said, thinking as fast as I could. “Um, some kid bumped into
“Oh, really,” she said flatly. I turned cold. “I suppose he bumped into
your mouth too.”
She open ed her purse and pulled out a tissue. “Spit.”
I knew what she wanted this time. I peeked at the onlookers who were
trying not to giggle. I spit on the tissue with as much dignity as I
could muster. Lesley wiped the corner of my mouth and held the tissue up
for my inspection. A bright yellow streak was unmistakable.
“Well … See …”
“We’ll discuss this later. Come along.”
She started off. At least, she didn’t pull me along by the hand this
“Where are we going?”
“ Home .”
“ Home ? Didn’t you find anything you liked?” I asked, as she had no
“I did. I put them in the trunk before I had to go traipsing after you.”
“Oh,” I said, not feeling any better that this trip was nearly over.
The palpable silence of the ride home ended when Lesley slammed her door
shut. I slowly got out on my side.
“Go to your room.” Her voice nearly shook with anger.
“ Lesley …”
“Not a word. Go. I’ll be with you as soon as I put the things I bought
I slunk past her. I don’t know why, but I felt that if I made one false
move, she would slap me. I continued to the bedroom and waited there as
minute after minute went by. I thought and thought of what excuse I
could give Lesley to explain why I had that corndog then tried to hide
The more I thought about it the more indignant I became. I’m a grown
man, after all. I can have a corndog when I feel like it. I had just
decided to go out and tell her just that when she walked in.
My bravado sank even faster than my stomach when I saw the look on her
face. Lesley was livid. “How dare you? You stood there and lied to my
face. You actually stood there with mustard all over your face and told
me a little boy bumped into you. It’s bad enough that you disobeyed me.
But to lie about it? When you are covered with the evidence? I’d say the
only little boy is the one I’m looking at right now. Your five year old
nephew wouldn’t even try that one. What have you got to say for
yourself? Anything? Come on, let’s hear it. This had better be good.”
“Well … I was kinda hungry … uh … and you said … but it was just one …
and I thought …”
“You thought? You thought? Oh, really. Just what did you think, little
“I …uh … thought one little corndog wouldn’t hurt my appetite …”
“You thought what I didn’t know wouldn’t hurt you. That’s what you
thought. Isn’t it?
I shifted uncomfortably. I shook. I couldn’t look her in the eye. I
already knew I was caught, but now I felt like it. I felt guilty and
embarrassed. I felt ashamed. The emotions were powerful. But still I
couldn’t admit it.
A lump caught in my throat. It was the words piling up there. Part of me
wanting to let them pour out, another part wanting to maintain my pride
and force them down. I trembled as I nodded, never taking my eyes from
the floor. I knew if I looked at Lesley , I would break down in tears.
“You knew you weren’t supposed to eat anything, didn’t you?”
“But you did it anyway, didn’t you?”
“And you tried to keep it from me, didn’t you?”
I bit my lip and nodded again.
“And you got caught, didn’t you?”
I nodded again, fighting harder against the rising wetness in my eyes.
“And you lied to me, didn’t you?”
Nodding, the first tear rolled down my cheek.
Lesley took my chin between her thumb and forefinger and forced me to
look at her. Lesley’s face was fuzzy around the edges due to the tears
in my eyes, but there was no mistaking the determination in hers. “You
deliberately disobeyed me and made up that cock and bull story to cover
your tracks, isn’t that so?”
A sob escaped my lips and my nose started to run. Tears flowed freely. I
squeaked something that we both knew meant “yes.”
“You have been a very naughty boy, Richard , and I am very, very
disappointed in you.”
She could have cut my heart out with a dull knife. It would have hurt
“You’re behavior today is absolutely unacceptable. Disobedience is one
thing and certainly bad enough. But I will not have you lying to me.
There is no excuse for that. Imagine. A supposedly grown man making up
fibs when he gets caught like a three year old with his hand in the
cookie jar. I’m very hurt that you felt you couldn’t be honest with me.”
I stood there feeling smaller and smaller, hoping that I would actually
shrink and disappear. I wept freely. Why, oh why, did I do it? “I’m
sorry,” I squeaked.
“Sorry you got caught you mean. Something is going to have to be done
about this. I’m afraid I’m going to have to punish you, Richard. I can’t
have you lying to me. I just won’t have it.”
“Yes, Ma’am,” I whimpered. I was ready to beg her to punish me, just to
get it over with. It couldn’t possibly be worse than the way I felt just
“Good boy,” she said. “Maybe you really are starting to feel sorry. I
can assure you, though. By the time I am finished with you, you will be.”
A chill ran through me Yet, I felt better hearing that tiny bit of
“Go to the corner and wait there. I’ll be right back.”
I would have run to the corner had the distance not been so short. I
soon heard water running in the bathroom. I few minutes later, I heard
Lesley ’s footsteps behind me.
“Pants down. I want to have a look while it’s still pale pink.”
I knew she wanted my bottom bare. I did not waste time trying to leave
my underpants in place. I sled them down with my shorts. As soon as I
did, Lesley landed a stinging swat. I shot upright, my mouth agape. She
reached around and shoved the well-lathered bar of soap right into my
“You can stay like that for a few minutes and think about how bad a lie
should taste. Don’t you dare take it out of your mouth, or it will be
I stood there doing my best to keep my tongue away form the soap. I sure
didn’t want to swallow any. It started to slip and I clamped down with
my teeth. I got a good taste and had to fight gagging. The saliva I
dared not swallow flowed out of my mouth around the bar. Pretty soon, I
had foamy goatee dripping onto my shirt.
My shirt was quite damp, and I was quite miserable when Lesley came
back. “Alright, I think you’ve learned that part of your lesson. You
were a very good boy for holding it so long, though it looks like I
should have gotten a bib on you first.” I’m not sure if my moan was out
loud or just in my head. “I think it would be best if you spit that out
in the sink. Go on now.”
I shuffled to the bathroom, my shorts bunched around my knees. Lesley
followed. I would have sworn I heard her giggle. I spat out the bar, and
I thought for sure I would loose the corndog along with it. I avoided
vomiting but not without swallowing some suds. I grabbed a paper cup
from the holder and started to fill it. Lesley gently but quickly took
it from my hand.
“No. I think you should wait till after the next part of your punishment
is over before you rinse. It will help you remember. Now, back to the
bedroom. Scoot.” She gave me another swat.
Lesley passed me as we entered the bedroom again. She sat down on her
vanity chair. I stopped in front of her and waited for the spanking I
knew was coming. Lesley reached over to the vanity. I thought she was
getting her hairbrush. Instead she unfolded a disposable diaper on her
lap. It was huge.
Lesley looked up and saw I was staring at her lap. “I see you are
wondering about this,” she said rustling the diaper. “I bought these
while you were at the computer store …or maybe while you were having
your little snack.”
“I thought they might come in handy for the little problem you’ve been
My shame deepened, and my face flushed with embarrassment.
“And I don’t need any accidents ruing my skirt.”
I groaned as she added to my humiliation. I watched her reach toward the
vanity again. This time she did pick up the hairbrush.
“Come on then. I think you know what comes next.”
I did. Resigned to my fate and needing Lesley ’s forgiveness, I laid
myself across her diaper protected lap. She slid her hand under me to
make sure I was arranged to maximize the effectiveness if the diaper in
the event I failed to control my bladder. She hitched up my t-shirt
above the small of my back and wrapped her arm around my waist. The
remnants of the soap in my teeth continued to melt while I steeled
myself for what was to come.
“It hurts me deeply that I have to do this. I aim to impress upon you
just how much it hurts. Don’t be afraid to cry, because I won’t be
stopping until I’m sure you are sincerely sorry. Do you understand me?”
“Yes Ma’am,” I uttered, a bit of foam leaking out.
I gasped. Lesley ’s onslaught began. It was hard from the very first
spank. Smack after smack rained down on my bottom. It didn’t take long
before I was crying hard, pleading my sorrow. Apologies bubbled from my
mouth, while soap bubbles fell to the floor. Over and over she recounted
my crimes: eating when I was told not to, not staying where I belonged.
Lying! She punctuated her words with sharp smacks to my bottom. Fire
burned in the spot where I sit. I knew I would not be using it for a
while. It went on and on.
“You will learn, little boy, that when Mommy tells you to do something
you will do it. And if Mommy says no, she means no.”
“Yes Mommy. I understand Mommy. I’m sorry Mommy. Please Mommy, no more.
I’ll be good,” I sobbed and begged and pleaded.
The end was as sudden and the beginning. The sudden stop only drew
attention to the deep sting in my lower cheeks and along the backs of my
legs. Tears and snot and soap suds mingled in little puddles beneath my
face. I lay limp over Lesley ’s lap.
“SSSShhhhhhhhhhh. That’s it let it out. Mommy loves you. I know you’re
sorry. And I know you are a good boy. You just need a reminder to help
you be good sometimes, don’t you?’
I nodded, too much a wreck to speak.
Lesley let me cry myself out. She rubbed my back and gently stroked my
bruised bottom. All the while telling me how much she loved me and
praising me for accepting my punishment like a big boy. When I calmed
sufficiently, she helped me to my feet.
“Looks like I had better get another one of these before I put you down
for a nap,” she said.
I looked down and, to my shame, saw the yellow stain on the diaper. I
blushed from head to foot and lowered my head. But Lesley reassured me.
“It’s okay, Honey. I know you couldn’t help it. That was a hard
spanking, and you haven’t used the potty since we left this morning. Why
don’t you go rinse your mouth out while I get things ready for your nap?”
I nodded weakly and walked to the bathroom. Halfway there I realized I
was walking. I must have kicked my shorts of during the spanking. I
rinsed my mouth again and again. At times, I wasn’t sure if it was
making it better or worse. When I felt I had done as well as I was going
to, I went back to the bedroom. I found the bed turned down and a diaper
waiting for me. I stared at it.
“Go ahead and lie down, Sweetie. I just want to be certain there aren’t
any repeat performances. You can understand that, can’t you?” she asked
“I guess,” I said, lying down and positioning myself on the waiting pad.
“That’s my good boy,” she said, smiling as she pulled the diaper up
between my legs. “You’ll sleep better knowing you won’t wet the bed this
I don’t know if I was tired or her logic was flawless, but I couldn’t
argue with it. Lesley slipped off her skirt blouse and hose and climbed
into bed beside me. She cradled my head and stroked my hair.
“All is forgiven now, my sweet little man,” she whispered. “Just to show
you, Mommy has a treat for you.”
She open ed her bra and slipped her nipple between my lips. I began
sucking without thinking. I really was exhausted from the whole
experience. It wasn’t till I woke up that I realized Lesley had been
wearing a nursing bra.
I woke refreshed. My sleep had been filled with dreams of soft scents
and billowy cushions. I could not remember a better night's rest. I
stretched and rolled onto my back, when I was struck by the sensation of
dampness around my bottom. The events of last night began to unfold. The
spanking, the soap, wetting on Lesley's diaper covered lap, falling
asleep as I nursed at her breast.
I was beginning to worry about how far Lesley was planning to carry
this. I had behaved badly with Carol , sure, but this was more than
getting even. There was a change in Lesley that I could not explain.
These childish punishments were humiliating. Still, I had never felt so
close to her. Something about this seemed so " right. What was going on?
"Good morning, Sleepyhead," Lesley startled me out of my reverie. "How
did my Sweetie sleep."
I blushed, having wet a little in the surprise of Lesley's intrusion
into my thoughts. Lesley sat down on the edge of the bed and kissed my
forehead gently. Another more loving kiss was planted on my lips. I
embraced her and was caught up in the moment, when I felt her fingers
slide inside the waistband of my diaper. I broke the kiss and turned
away, hoping I wouldn't cry.
" It's okay, Sweetheart. That's what diapers are for. Let Mommy help you
get that off."
She slid the bedclothes down, exposing me. She unfastened the diaper and
smiled. I blushed. There was no denying my enjoyment of her
"I think my baby needs a bath. He stinks," she said laughingly. She
stood me up and gently pushed me in the direction of the bathroom.
"My, my. Such a red bottom. Are you getting a rash, Sweetness?" she
I frowned at her. She knew darn well why my bottom was red.
The bath felt great, especially the way she washed me. I nearly had an
accident of a different kind as she made sure to get my hidden places
good and clean. She threw some of my nephew's tub toys in the water and
told me to play while she got some things ready. She warned me not to
get any water on the floor.
I sat and looked at the toys for a few minutes wondering what to do.
Eventually, I picked up a boat and started pushing it around. I pushed
the submarine under the water, sneaking up on the boat and ramming it
from underneath. I picked up a cup and started pouring water on top of
the boat, trying to sink it. Pretty soon, I was making tidal waves in
Lesley chose that moment to come back. My last tidal wave sloshed over
the side and splashed her shoes. She was not pleased. I looked up at her
and gave her a weak smile.
"I think it's time for you to get out," she said, her anger barely under
Lesley pulled a towel from the linen press and told me to stand up. She
dried me roughly and sent me to the bedroom with a swat on my behind.
There were clothes laid out on the bed. These were my regular clothes,
and I breathed a small sigh of relief to know we would be getting back
to normal. I moved toward the bed to get dressed. Lesley stopped me
"I don't think so. Those clothes are for somebody who's grown up and
mature, not for somebody who can't be trusted to take a bath without
making a mess. We'll have to find you something more appropriate, won't
" Awww , Lesley . I was just having a little fun."
"So, it's fun making a mess of the bathroom and getting my shoes wet, is
it? Let's see how fun you think this is." She grabbed my wrist and
headed for her vanity chair. Her other hand snatched the towel from my
"No, pleeeeeease! Not another spanking. I'm sorry. I'll clean it up.
I'll be good."
"Oh, you will be good. And you will clean up your mess," she growled.
"But not before I teach you a lesson about minding what Mommy says."
She snatched up her hairbrush and brought it crashing down on my soft
and tender backside. Sitting in the water all that time made me
especially sensitive. It was only a matter of seconds before I was
crying in earnest. When my bottom was blazing red and my cries were no
longer intelligible Lesley put down the hairbrush and sent me to the
"Now let's see what fashions the bad little boy will be wearing today."
I could hear Lesley rummaging around the room. I didn't dare turn to
look. "I think this will do for now. Come on, little one."
I turned around and she was holding a diaper in one hand and a yellow
and white striped top that belonged to her in the other. The top had lap
shoulders and looked very sexy on her voluptuous frame. When she put it
on me, it did not even come down to the top of the diaper, making me
look like an over-grown toddler.
"Now you will get in that bathroom, young man, and you will not just
wipe up the mess you made. You will scrub the entire bathroom from top
to bottom. You had better do a good job of it too, because you aren't
getting any breakfast until I'm satisfied. Is that clear?"
"Yes, Lesley ," I said meekly.
"Much better. Now get in there and get to work."
I shuffled back to the bathroom, my head hung in shame. What was I
thinking? I wasn't, obviously. I looked at the puddles on the floor and
sighed at my stupidity. I took the discarded towel Lesley had used to
dry me and mopped up the excess water. I filled the sink with hot water
and took the tub and tile cleaner from beneath it . For the next hour, I
sprayed and scrubbed, sprayed and scrubbed. I made sure every crevice
around the toilet was as clean as could be. The way things were going
lately, I half expected Lesley to come back with a white glove. I had
emptied and wipe out the sink and was looking around to be sure
everything sparkled when Lesley came in. She stood with her arms folded
and slowly looked about, nodding.
"Acceptable," she said. "I expect you to keep it this way. Is that
"Yes, Le " I stopped myself, not knowing if things had changed that
The fainted trace of a grin formed around Lesley's mouth.
"Good boy," she said, stepping over to me. "Now come eat your breakfast
before it gets cold."
She took my hand and guided me out of the bathroom, giving me a few pats
on the bottom as I passed in front of her. I got down to the table to
find it set with a large bowl of oatmeal and a tall glass of milk.
"But Lesley , I don't like oatmeal."
"Now, now, it's good for you. Boys your age need to keep regular. Be a
good boy and sit down."
As I sat down, Lesley picked up the dish towel that was lying on the
table and proceed to tie it around my neck.
"What are you doing?" I asked, not a little shocked.
"That's my shirt you're wearing. I want to make sure it stays clean"
I couldn't really argue with her logic. Well, I could, but it didn't
seem a very good idea at the moment. I stared down into the bowl of gray
goo with the pat of butter melting on top.
"But there's so much," I said looking up at her.
"Don't whine," she said curtly. Then taking a more soothing tone, she
suggested, "If you promise to eat it all gone, I'll put some brown sugar
on it , how's that?"
"Okay," I sighed, still not thrilled at the prospect. Lesley cleared her
throat. "Uh yes, Mommy," I stammered hurriedly.
"Mm hmm," she nodded, going to the cupboard. Lesley returned and
sprinkled a little brown sugar in the cereal.
"More please?" I asked, giving her my best puppy dog eyes.
She thought about it for a moment. "Alright," she conceded and stirred a
little more in. "But that's all."
I would have liked more, but I wasn't going to push my luck. Lesley
turned the spoon to me and urged me to eat up. By the time I had eaten
half the bowl, I was getting full. It wasn't too bad with the sugar, but
I still didn't like it . I was eating slower and slower. When the bowl
was two-thirds empty I couldn't make myself take another bite.
Lesley set her coffee down. "Come, come, come, you promised to eat it
"I can't. I'm full. Is there any more coffee?"
"Not until you finish your breakfast. Now, eat," she said firmly.
I sullenly picked up the spoon again, but I couldn't bear the thought of
one more mouthful. I dropped the spoon into the bowl.
"Fine," Lesley huffed. She picked up the spoon in one hand and took my
chin in the other. Before I had a chance to ask what she was doing,
Lesley shoved the spoon in my mouth. Shocked nearly to the point of
panic, I swallowed and coughed. I opened my mouth to speak, only to have
it filled with oatmeal again. Lesley's pace was furious. Between her
feeding me faster than I could swallow and my struggling to avoid any
more, my face and the dishtowel were soon dotted oatmeal. It was over as
quickly as it started. I stared down at the now empty bowl, trying to
catch my breath.
"Just look at you," Lesley said with disgust. " It's a good thing I put
your bib on you. Now drink your milk " and use two hands. I don't want
you making an even bigger mess."
"Can't I have some coffee now?"
Lesley gave me a chilling look. I turned back to the milk. I may have
pouted as I picked it up with both hands.
"That's a good boy," she said, taking the bowl and spoon away. She
rinsed them while I worked on the overly large glass of milk. I didn't
dare stop drinking. I set the empty glass down, gasping.
"There we go. All done," Lesley said cheerily. The next thing I knew,
Lesley was scrubbing my face vigorously with a damp cloth. "There. All
clean and shiny, with a full tummy, ready to face the new day."
I blushed and considered muttering something. Lesley talked to me as if
I were more four than forty. I got up feeling terribly bloated.
"Can I have some coffee now?"
"Grammar, darling," Lesley intoned. " It's " MAY I have some coffee
please, Mommy?" Now, you try it ."
Trying not to clench my jaw in anger, I asked again, " MAY I have some
coffee now please. Mommy?"
"Watch your tone with me, young man," she said, wagging a finger at me.
"And no, you may not have a cup of coffee. You've been drinking far too
much lately, and it makes you irritable."
Irritable! I'll give you irritable! I thought. I was about to open my
mouth when Lesley stuck her fingers inside the diaper. All I could do
was stare at her.
"Still dry? Good. Let's see if we can find you dome pants to go with
She turned away, expecting me to follow. I stood there fuming. She had
taken a few steps, not even considering the possibility that I wouldn't
tag right along. Enough was enough.
"I am NOT a baby," I shouted. I blushed a little, realizing I stamped my
foot at the same time, but I determined to hold my ground. Lesley
turned, her eyebrow raised. Her gaze traveled up and down my body,
stopping briefly at my waist. She glanced over at the dish towel on the
table, eyeing the oatmeal stains. My eyes followed hers. I was beginning
"Oh, really?" she said, giving me a cold hard stare. "Who had to be
spoon-fed his breakfast this morning? Who was such a messy eater he
needed a bid? Who made a mess playing with his toys in the bathtub?"
Lesley came closer and closer with each question.
"But, but, but", I wasn't holding so firm.
"And who," she asked standing fight of me, "woke up with wet pampers
this morning, hmm?"
"But you made me wear them," I whined.
"I didn't make you wet them, did I?"
"And why did I make you wear them?"
My resolve was almost gone now. "Be " because I " wet myself," I finally
whispered, my head hanging down.
"That's right. And now I think you need a time out to think about this
little outburst." She took my hand and dragged me to the corner of the
living room. "You can just stand there for the next hour and think about
whether that little tantrum was worth it . And don't you dare take you
nose out of that corner."
Lesley gave a sharp swat to my padded bottom and left me to my thoughts.
There were certainly enough of them. I was mad that she was treating me
like a child. On the other hand, I had been acting like one. At least,
it could look that way. But how could I be expected to act grown up when
I am running around in a diaper? And the spankings! I hadn't been
spanked since I was ten. Now I was beginning to lose count. Yet I
couldn't say that I didn't deserve them.
These thoughts and more bounced around in my head, battling it out for
supremacy. I understood what it was to be of two minds. The clock slowly
ticked. Another thought entered my head. Not so much a thought, really,
as a feeling. I had been up for the better part of two hours now, and I
had that big glass of milk. That feeling pressed itself closer and
closer to the front of my thoughts as my bladder was sending signals of
needing relief. I was going to have to do something about it soon.
"Uh " Lesl " Mommy?" I said tentatively. I knew she was in the room, I
could hear the rustling of her newspaper as she turned the pages.
"Aren't you supposed to be thinking?"
"I " uh " have to go to the bathroom."
"Do you now? And you said you aren't a baby. Surely a big boy like you
can hold it for one little hour. I think you should stay there and show
me what a big boy you are."
"I let my head droop into the corner. There wasn't going to be any
convincing her soon. I continued to contemplate what had happened over
the last couple of days. How had things gotten to this point? Was my
behavior that much worse than usual? It didn't seem so to me. Lesley had
always been a force of nature, but what had turned her from my beautiful
sexy wife into a stern but loving mother? I had to admit that she was
loving " when she wasn't punishing me. It felt good. More than that, it
felt right somehow. I had never felt closer to Lesley than last night
when she held me in her arms nursing me to sleep. This was getting very
The urgency in my bladder continued to grow, making it difficult to come
to grips with these strange feelings. I felt very full, and I had to
concentrate on holding it back. Clamping down on one particularly bad
spasm, I broke wind. I realized that I was soon going to have another
"Mommy? " I have to go " really bad," I said, all but clenching my teeth.
"Not yet, Honey. Five more minutes. You can make it . You're a big boy.
You said so yourself." Her voice was sympathetic but resolute.
"But Mommy", I pleaded.
"Five more minutes." That was the end of that. Lesley was bound and
determined that the punishment would be carried through for the whole
hour. I knew from her tome that arguing would only make matters worse.
I concentrated on proving I wasn't a baby. Five more minutes. Five more
minutes. It's not that long. You can make it . It's no time at all. No
But it was a problem. The contractions in my bladder were coming closer
and stronger. I was farting so frequently I was starting to sound like
an engine, and gas wasn't the only exhaust that would be coming out the
tailpipe soon. Lesley must be using the same clock they use for football
games , because that last five minutes had to have lasted an hour in
themselves. By the end, I wasn't even pretending not to do the peepee
"Alright, little man. I hope you thought hard about the way you were
acting. I don't want anymore tantrums out of you. You won't be very
happy if I see one again. Now let's go upstairs and take your diaper off
so you can go potty."
I would have run for the bathroom, but each step was agony. As I reached
the bottom of the stairs, the worst spasm yet sent me to my knees.
Putting all my effort in to staunching the flow, I forgot about my other
problem. Along with the fart a poop slipped out. Flabbergasted, I
quickly shut down the back door. My bladder took advantage of my
momentary distraction to seek relief. And relief it got. There was no
stopping it now. I could only kneel there in disbelief.
As the flood became a trickle, I became aware of Lesley by my side.
Mortified, I looked up at her. She looked down at me with a look that
was part sympathy, part disappointment, and part I-told-you-so. I was
devastated. Tears welled up in my eyes.
"I am a baby," I wailed.
Lesley knelt down beside me. "I know, Baby. It's okay. It's okay. Mommy
will take care of you."
Lesley rubbed my back, as I sobbed. She cooed soothing things in my ear,
and I was soon settled down enough to listen to her.
"Okay, Honey. Let's get you upstairs and out of that wet diaper. I think
you better crawl, I'm afraid of what might happen if you stand up."
I didn't think. I just started crawling up the stairs. The pendulous
weight between my legs reminded me of my shame. I dripped tears all the
way to the bathroom. I was defeated. I was a baby, a bad baby. I
deserved to be treated like this.
Lesley directed me to get in the tub. I stood up mechanically and
stepped in, feeling even more the weight of the sodden diaper and the
load it bore. I stood motionless, as Lesley released the top tapes. The
diaper slid off my hips and came to rest between my ankles with a
sickening plop. Lesley gasped. I thought I detected a giggle, as she
spied the present I left in the seat. I was too numb to care. I stood
there and wept.
Lesley hugged me gently and murmured reassurances. " It's alright,
Sweetie. All babies wet and make poopies in their diapers. That's what
they're there for. It's okay."
She lifted my feet out of the diaper, one at a time. She dumped the poop
in the toilet and discarded the soggy garment. She had me hold the shirt
out of the way while washed me gently, all the time assuring me that
Mommy would make it all better.
When I was clean again, Lesley guided me to the bedroom and onto the
bed. Still stunned, I lay still as she placed a fresh diaper beneath me.
She rubbed pink lotion into my skin , flowed by sweet-smelling baby
powder. She hummed something familiar by unrecognized, and she soon had
the diaper taped securely around my middle.
Lesley gently instructed me to get under the covers, and she would be
right back. I meekly complied. I was mentally exhausted. Lesley returned
and lay down next to me. I curled up into her arms.
"You just take a nap, Sweetheart. You've had a busy morning."
I was happy to obey. I drifted off, wondering where she got the baby
bottle that slipped between my