I was nervous as I sat in the waiting room of Dr. Youngman's office. I
had consented to being a possible clinical subject for a Masters &
Johnson study being conducted by Dr. Youngman and several other doctors.
I would earn some income for an extended length of time if I was found
suitable, and I needed the money! However, I had no idea what kind of
tests I'd have to pass first.
I was finally getting interested in a story from a 10-year old Reader's
Digest when a nurse came into the waiting room and called my name. "Kim?
The doctor needs to see you in his office." I stood up and walked over
to her. "Please follow me."
We walked down the hall to Dr. Youngman's office at the end. The nurse
opened the door for me and asked me to have a seat in a chair facing the
doctor's desk. 'I'll be back to get you after your interview," she said.
"I'll help you get ready for your physical exam when the doctor is done
talking to you."
"Thank you," I said.
She smiled at me as she closed the door and said, "don't be nervous. Dr.
Youngman is very nice and easy to talk to." I smiled back at her and
turned to take my place in the chair facing the doctor's desk. Dr.
Youngman came in about 5 minutes later, in a sport jacket, tan slacks,
and a stethoscope around his neck.
He sat at his desk and opened a file with my name on it. "Tell me why
you'd like to participate in this study, Kim."
"Well, I need the money for the most part, and I figured it would be
interesting work," I answered.
"Do you know how you will be examined for this study?" he asked.
"Not specifically, but I know about Masters & Johnson, so I guess it
will be an exam of my genitals or breasts," I told him.
"Well Kim, this is a little different, even for M&J, but you're on the
right track. This study is focusing on female orgasm as well as female
masturbation: habits, styles, frequency, etc. In particular your breasts
and external genitals will be stimulated and measured several times a
day. At least 3 times a day I will examine you in the doctor's
auditorium which will be attended by approximately 50 doctors. Any of
those doctors can then examine you again after you've been returned to
your private room. You will also be required to masturbate 3 times a
day, with myself and at least one other doctor present to observe you.
Would you be comfortable with those arrangements?"
"I think so, but I'd be shy at first," I admitted.
He smiled and said "of course you would. That's normal. But after the
first 2 days or so you'll be somewhat used to it, I think."
I agreed, somewhat tentatively.
"So now Kim, I need to ask you some personal questions. How old were you
the first time you masturbated?"
"I was young, around 5, and it was accidental, I think," I replied.
"Did you continue to masturbate at that point?"
"Well, it felt good but my mother was on to me and would try to catch me
at it when it was my nap time."
Dr. Youngman asked, "did you feel it was wrong to masturbate? Did your
mother make you feel that way?"
"I remember thinking I was just not going to let her catch me anymore!"
I told him.
The doctor laughed. "As you grew older did you continue to masturbate?
Did your technique change?"
"Yes, I continued, and yes, I started to actually feel my clitoris."
Dr. Youngman asked, "have you ever used a vibrator or other aids in your
"Only when I became an adult - in my 30s, I think. Now I use one every
The doctor asked, "do you insert the vibrator into your vagina,
stimulate your clitoris, or both?"
"Both but not always. However, I do always use it on my clitoris."
"Okay. How often a week do you masturbate?"
"About 4 or 5 times, I think," I said.
"Hm hm, I see. Do you ever feel of your breasts during your
"Yes," I told him.
"Kim, at this time I would like to examine your breasts, just briefly,
please stay sitting where you are." The doctor came around from behind
his desk and pulling another chair over, sat beside me. "Just turn
towards me, Kim." I turned to face him. "This blouse you're wearing
makes this exam easier for me." He lifted up my blouse to expose my
right, clothed breast. "Just relax, let me feel you gently now…"
He placed his right hand on my right breast and began to palpitate it.
"Hm hm…now your left breast." He lifted my blouse on the left side and
gently felt my left breast. "Hm hm, that's good." He lowered my blouse
then told me, "okay Kim, I need to take a look at you now. Don't be
nervous. I'm going to have the nurse come get you to prepare you for
your physical exam. She'll get you ready, and I'll be with you shortly
to examine you. I'll have a colleague with me, by the way. He may chose
to examine you at this time as well. Okay?"
"Okay," I said, a little nervous and embarrassed.
Dr. Youngman picked up his phone and called the nurse. "Kim is ready for
her physical exam preparation, are you free to do that now? Great,
thanks," he said as he put the phone back. "You'll do fine," he said.
The nurse came in and smiled and said "Kim, come with me and we'll get
you ready so the doctor can examine you." I stood to follow her out the
We went two doors to the right down the hall and she opened the door.
"This room is separate from the examination room so you can undress in
private. The gowns are two piece, top and bottom. Now please remove
everything except bra and panties and make sure your gown opens in
front, and leave it untied."
"Do I leave on my bra and panties?" I asked.
"Yes, that's the procedure the doctor prefers. He needs to examine your
breasts while they're being supported in a brassiere. You'll see." I
thanked her. "Now when you're ready, just go through that door to your
right and sit on the exam table. The table is actually quite
comfortable; it's more like a chair for leaning back, covered in
leather. The doctors will be with you in a few minutes." She smiled and
left. I slowly got undressed and put the gown on. It was different, like
a split skirt and flapping shirt. It crinkled as I put it on. I went
through the door and climbed on the exam table, feeling nervous.
Five minutes later Dr. Youngman and another doctor came in. "Kim, this
is Dr. Weston. He probably will need to examine you as well. Can you
make the time?"
"I think so," I said.
"If possible we'd like to keep you here for as long as possible today,"
the doctor said.
"I think that would be OK," I answered.
"Good, then let's get started. Let's have you just lie back on the table
and relax." I lay down on my back. Dr. Youngman stepped up to my side
and separated my gown to expose my full chest. "First I need to feel
your breasts in your brassiere. Just relax." He felt my right breast
with both hands. "Hm hm, feels like good support. Now your left breast."
He moved both hands to my left breast. "Hm hm, now if you'll sit up for
me for just a minute…" I sat up and Dr. Youngman lifted my gown in back
and unsnapped my bra. He pushed my bra up around my neck, then placed
his stethoscope in his ears. It felt cold on my chest. "Just breathe
normally, Kim." The doctor lifted my breasts when necessary and finished
by placing the stethoscope on each nipple. "Hm hm, that's good," he said.
He took the stethoscope out of his ears. "Now I'm going to feel your
breasts, Kim. Please lie back and put your arms over your head." After
lying back and lifting my arms over my head, Dr. Youngman opened my
gown, pushed my bra up further towards my neck, then placed both hands
on my right breast. "You have very full breasts, Kim. What size cup
brassiere do you wear?"
"A 40D, doctor," I said.
"Hm hm, and how old were you when your breasts first began developing?"
"Fifth grade, I think," I told him.
"Did you begin wearing a bra in 5th grade?" he wanted to know.
"Yes," I answered, as Dr. Youngman moved his hands to my left breast.
"And how old were you when your breasts were first examined by a doctor
as I'm feeling your breasts now?"
"You had a thorough doctor then. Did he also examine your genitals at
that time for sexual development and stimulation?" He was still feeling
my left breast.
"No, I don't think so," I said. "Now I'm going to feel both breasts, and
then your nipples." My gown made rustling noises as he moved it apart
again to finish the breast exam. "Any pain when I feel your breasts,
"No, doctor, none."
Then he squeezed my nipples, a little hard. "How about the nipples, any
tenderness there when I feel you?"
"No, none, doctor."
The doctor then pulled up a cart along side me with two gel plastic cups
attached to long hoses. "I'm going to attach a breast pump machine to
your breasts now, Kim. This will measure any discharge you may have from
your nipples, as well as measure any breast size changes that should
occur while I am conducting your genital exam. This shouldn't be
uncomfortable." He placed each gel cup on my breasts one at a time, and
aligned the hose above each nipple. "You'll feel some pressure as the
cups adjust to your breasts." He turned on the machine, which hummed
quietly. Immediately I felt a pull on my nipples and pressure on my
Dr. Youngman then walked to the end of the exam table and pulled out the
stirrups. "I'm going to put your feet in the stirrups now and feel your
genitals while you have on your panties. I'm checking for temperature
He placed my feet in the stirrups, one at a time. He held a curved,
silver thermometer in his hand, shaped like a cup. "Now just relax - I
need to hold this on your genitals for 5 minutes." He lifted the
waistband of my panties and slid his cupped hand slowly down my panties,
placing the thermometer over my clitoris and labia. An involuntary
shudder went through me when he did that! "Spread your legs nice and
wide now, Kim. Just try to lie absolutely still for 5 minutes." He
glanced at a clock on the wall to start timing.
After 5 minutes he withdrew his hand and recorded the temperature.
Walking back to the end of the table he said, "we need to have your
panties off now, Kim. Lift you hips up so I can slide them down off you."
I lifted my hips as the doctor put his thumbs inside the waistband of my
panties and then lifted my feet from the stirrups to remove my panties
Dr. Youngman turned on a bright light situated near the stirrups, pulled
on rubber gloves then stood at my side. "When was your last genital exam
that included a thorough clitoral stimulation, Kim?" he asked.
"I've never had an exam like that, doctor! I'm sure!" I was mildly
The doctor simply explained "well Kim, now I'm going to perform your
genital exam, which will include a thorough clitoral examination. Please
let your legs fall open as wide as you can and try to lie still."
I dropped my knees as wide as I could. Dr. Youngman opened my gown
completely, the gown rustling as he exposed my genitals. "I little
wider, please Kim." I opened wider. He placed his left hand on my labia
and spread me open. He then placed his right hand on my vulva and gently
rubbed. "Hm hm, you're normally developed here, I see. I'm going to
examine your vagina now. Just let me insert my finger…"
He leaned over to closely examine my genitals as he inserted his middle
right finger. He slid his finger in and out several times slowly. "Your
natural lubrication is functioning normally - is there any pain when I
move my finger inside the vagina?" he asked.
"No, none, doctor," I replied.
"Now I'm going to insert two fingers. Let me know if there's any
discomfort." He inserted his index and middle right fingers, while still
holding my labia open with his left hand. "Hm hm…just relax." He
withdrew his fingers and then measured my labia for swelling. Dr. Weston
moved to the foot of the table to write down the measurement. "Your
labia is swelling - that's good," Dr. Youngman said. "Now I'm going to
have to examine your clitoris, I'm afraid. Try to lie still." Dr.
Youngman again placed his left hand on my labia and spread me open. He
then pulled back the clitoral hood, exposing my clitoris to the fullest
"Dr. Weston, could you please take a pre-stimulation measure of the
clitoris?" he asked. Dr. Weston snapped on rubber gloves then produced a
tiny ruler and measured my clitoris, writing down the number. "Now Kim,
I have to gently manipulate your clitoris. Just try to lie still so I
can observe your genitals while I'm feeling you down here."
He asked Dr. Weston, "could you please hold the patient's legs open for
me during the clitoral exam?"
Dr. Weston nodded agreement as he placed one hand on each knee and
gently pushed my legs open. Then Dr. Youngman again pulled back my
clitoral hood and started rubbing my clitoris slowly. "Just relax - I
have to stimulate you now." He kept up the rhythmic rubbing for several
"Let's get another measurement," he said to Dr. Weston. Dr. Weston again
produced the ruler and my clitoris was measured again, the number again
recorded. "Now Kim, I have to check your vagina again, this time using a
vibrator. You'll have to have the whole shaft inserted, I'm afraid. Just
relax and let me insert the vibrator now." Dr. Youngman produced a
gleaming vibrator and proceeded to insert it into my vagina. "That's
good, just relax, take the whole shaft…"
After the vibrator was all the way in Dr. Youngman turned in on. "Now
I'm going to feel of your clitoris again, Kim, while the vibrator is in
your vagina." He slowly rubbed my clitoris while moving the vibrator in
and out of my vagina. Dr. Weston continued to hold my legs apart. After
about 5 minutes Dr. Youngman pulled the vibrator out of my vagina and
immediately picked up another one. Dr. Weston, please examine the data
from the vaginal vibrator and be sure to collect the vaginal lubrication
on the shaft."
Dr. Youngman looked at me and said, "now I'm going to place this
vibrator directly on your clitoris, I'm afraid. It's important that you
remain still during the examination. I know it's difficult, Dr. Weston
is going to hold you down for my examination. At the end of this exam I
will allow you to move your hips."
Dr. Weston came back to the end of the table and held my legs back
again, but this time he pulled leather straps out from the exam table
and strapped both my legs down at the knee and upper thigh. Then he went
back to my feet and pushed my knees apart again. Dr. Youngman had put a
small headlamp around his head and had turned on the light. "Now just
relax. I need to get a good look at your clitoris." He turned on the
vibrator and then pushed my clitoral hood back with his left hand. "Now
I'll apply the vibrator. It may feel a bit cold." He placed the vibrator
on my clitoris and continued to look closely.
I about went through the roof!
"Hm hm, the clitoris is erect… now just let me look at you down here…"
He stopped the vibrator momentarily and leaned closer to my genitals,
the headlamp shining directly on my clitoris. "The clitoris is growing,
Dr. Youngman," Dr. Weston commented.
"Yes, that's excellent. Now Kim, I'm going to bring you to climax. Do
you think you can have an orgasm for me?" He glanced at my face.
"I think so, doctor," I said, about going crazy.
"Keep the legs open, doctor," Dr. Youngman said to Dr. Weston. Then Dr.
Youngman bent to his task, turned the vibrator back on, and applied it
to my engorged clitoris. I was squirming!
"Hm hm, let's let the orgasm come…" Dr. Youngman said.
After a few minutes of that I started my orgasm. "Dr. Weston, it's time
to feel the contractions of the vagina."
"I agree," Dr. Weston said and proceeded to insert two fingers in my
vagina while I continued to orgasm.
When I finally subsided Dr. Weston removed his fingers and Dr. Youngman
turned off the vibrator. "Now we need to measure your clitoris again,
Kim. Try to lie still." He pulled back my clitoral hood again and
measured my clitoris. Then he walked to my side. "I need to feel of your
breasts now Kim. Let's remove the breast pump and then put your arms
over your head." He removed the gel cups from both my breasts and put
them back on the cart.
As I pulled my arms up Dr. Youngman asked "Dr. Weston, would you like to
perform a breast exam at this time?" he asked the doctor.
"Yes, I would, doctor," he answered. Dr. Weston came to my side and
placed both hands on my right breast as Dr. Youngman walked to a table
to record some data. "Hm hm, now your left breast, Kim…" he said as he
moved both hands to my left breast.
While Dr. Weston was examining my breasts, Dr. Youngman picked up the
phone, which was blinking a red light. "I see; four doctors. Very good!
We're almost done here so you should be able to perform your
examinations of Kim very shortly." He hung up.
"Kim, I have received requests from 4 other doctors to examine you who
have observed this exam. I hope we can continue with your testing today?"
"Fine, doctor, I have at least all today," I said.
"Great! Now I'm going to remove the straps from you because I need you
to roll over on your side facing away from me." He undid the straps and
took my feet out of the stirrups, waiting for me to roll on my side.
"Just relax," he said as I felt him spread my buttocks and push a finger
in my anus. He then reached over my hips and placed his left hand on my
clitoris. "Just let me feel here…" he said as he rubbed my clitoris and
moved his finger in and out of my anus. "Hm hm… that's good, just let me
feel you…" He then withdrew both hands and asked me to get on my hands
and knees on the table. When I was in position he asked me to move my
knees apart; "I need to see you down here just a little wider…" He again
inserted a finger in my anus and this time also inserted a finger in my
"Now Kim I'm going to also feel of your clitoris, just relax." Then he
started rubbing my clitoris with the same hand he was using to examine
my vagina. "In and out, that's good." Then he withdrew both hands and
walked up to the side of the table and felt my breasts while leaning
over me. "I have to feel your breasts now Kim, just relax." When he
finished he recorded all the information he had gathered. "Now Kim, one
of the four doctors who have requested to examine you will be here
shortly. Please leave your clothes off and sit on the side of the table.
You've been an excellent patient!" The doctors both left me alone in the
Dr. Smith, a young, short, black man, entered 5 minutes later. "Hello
Kim, I'm Dr. Smith. I've observed your exams today and am quite anxious
to examine you myself. Are you ready?" He pulled his stethoscope out of
"Yes, doctor," I said.
"Very well, just breathe normally," he said. He opened my gown to expose
my breasts, producing crinkling noises. He placed his stethoscope on my
chest. "Hm hm, breathe again," he said. He moved the stethoscope
underneath my right breast, "and again," he said, moving the stethoscope
to my right nipple. "And again," moving the stethoscope to underneath my
left breast, "and again," moving the stethoscope to my left nipple, "and
again." "Hm hm, let's feel your breasts now."
He placed both hands on my right breast. "What size cup brassiere did
you say you wear, Kim?" he asked, feeling my right breast.
"40D," I replied.
"And when were your breasts first examined by a doctor?" he asked,
moving his hands to my left breast.
"In 9th grade."
"Hm hm, I see." Dr. Smith then pulled on rubber gloves. "Now Kim I want
you to lean back a bit and spread your legs for me." I leaned back and
spread my thighs a bit. Dr. Smith had put a headlamp on and I could feel
the heat from the light on my thigh. "Open a little more, please," he
requested. I spread my legs wider. "Hm hm, just let me have a look here,
let me feel you." He used his two left fingers to open my labia and then
began feeling my clitoris with his right hand. "Let's see if we can have
another orgasm now." He kept up a steady pace until I came again. "Very
good Kim. Now feet in the stirrups please, I need to measure you." I
rolled over on my back and put my feet in the stirrups. Dr. Smith
immediately measured my clitoris for size.
"Okay Kim, I believe you can put your exam gown on and go to your
assigned private room. I'll call the nurse to help you." Dr. Smith left
A few moments later the nurse appeared to usher me to my room. "How did
everything go?" she asked. "Are you still nervous about participating?"
"Well, not quite so nervous; I guess I did okay."
"Well, once you're settled in your room you'll feel more at home." She
waited as I finished putting my exam gown on. "I'll let you collect your
clothes, then I'll wheel you to your room." I came back with my clothes
and sat in the wheelchair to be pushed to my room.
"You're in room #8; it's closest to the exam theater. Did you realize
the doctor's exam of you was witnesses by 60 doctors?"
"No! I had no idea!"
"Well, you'll be getting some company soon; I hear there are several
doctors who want to examine you.”
She wheeled me into room #8. "Try to relax for now - you're going to be
busy. Doctor has scheduled your first masturbation session for 30
minutes from now."
Oh man, I thought. I don't know if I can do this.
Dr. Youngman came in my room 30 minutes later. "Okay Kim, did the nurse
tell you your first masturbation session is scheduled for about now?"
"Yes, she did," I said.
"Just relax - I've placed vibrators, whatever you may need, on the table
next to your bed. There are five doctors who want to observe you, along
with me. They'll be here shortly."
Five minutes later the group of six doctors had gathered around my bed.
The lights were dimmed except for one above my bed. "Okay Kim, please
commence with your masturbation," Dr. Youngman said.
I looked under my table and pulled out a vibrator. I lay back and slowly
moved my gown to expose my breasts. The fabric crinkled as I moved it. I
felt my right breast with both hands, then felt my left breast. Then I
slowly opened the bottom part of my gown and spread my legs apart. I
held open m y labia and inserted a finger in my vagina. Then I turned on
the vibrator and slowly inserted it in my vagina. I began to stroke my
clitoris at the same time. The doctors stopped me momentarily to take
measurements of my clitoris and breasts.
"Please continue, Kim." I spread my labia and pulled back my clitoral
hood, exposing my clitoris. I placed the vibrator on my clitoris turning
it on at the same time. I started to come almost immediately. "Very good
Kim - we're going to let you rest for a while now," Dr. Youngman said.
They filed out of my room.
An hour later I woke to find another new doctor in my room. He adjusted
his stethoscope and glanced up at me as he approached my side. He opened
my gown to expose both breasts. "Hello Kim - I'm Dr. Sandoval. Just
relax now while I examine you." He placed both hands on my right breast.
"Hm hm, just lie still…just let me feel you…" He moved his hands to my
"That's good, just relax…" He pulled on rubber gloves and asked me how I
"I'm fine," I said. "No complaints or aches or pain?" he asked as his
right hand disappeared under my gown.
"That's good. Let me take a look at you now," he said as he placed his
left hand under my gown too. "Spread your legs for me Kim, I'm going to
feel your genitals now." I opened my legs as he bent over and folded
back the gown to expose my genitals. "A little wider please, Kim." I
opened further. He opened my labia with his left hand and separated my
labia with his right hand. "I'm going to feel your clitoris now, Kim.
You need to try to lie still for me. I need to get a good look at you
down here while I'm feeling you. Just relax."
His right index finger made slow circles around my clitoris. "Sensitive
here, Kim?" he asked.
"Yes, doctor!" I said.
"Hm hm, just a little longer…" He kept circling my clitoris with his
finger. "Kim, please feel free to grab the side of the bed if necessary.
I'm going to put these straps around your thighs and knees now for a
better view of your genitals." He pulled out straps and buckled them,
adjusting the looseness. "There, this won't hurt." He resumed circling
my clitoris, holding back the hood with his left hand. I started to grip
the bed. "Hm hm, that's good Kim. I must feel you now - try to lie
still." He was trying to keep my legs spread wide while I was squirming
everywhere. "I'm going to ask assistance Kim - I need to have your legs
spread wider. Just relax."
He went to a wall phone and mumbled a message, then returned to me.
"Let's keep going, shall we?" He resumed feeling my clitoris. Suddenly
Dr. Weston came in and proceeded to put a hand on each of my knees,
spreading me wider and holding me down while I squirmed. "Hold her wider
- that's good," Dr. Sandoval said. I was trying to kick now, my clitoris
was responding like crazy! "Hold her down tighter - the orgasm has
started," Dr. Sandoval said, continuing to feel my clitoris. When I
finally reach climax, he kept feeling me, holding me down, until I
The doctor then pulled a new machine to the side of my bed. "Now Kim,
this is going to examine your breasts, nipples, clitoris, vagina and
anus simultaneously. Please allow me to apply the cups to your breasts
and genitals. Arms over your head, please." He lifted my gown and placed
an inside-out large suction cup on my right breast. It flipped right
side out to enclose my breast. A tube ran from my nipple to the machine.
"Let's make sure the nipple is in the hose… now the left breast."
Another flipped rubber cup with hose attached. "Now Kim, open wide,
please." A large cup shaped rubber attachment was made ready for
application. One end had a large bulbous anal plug, in the middle was a
rubber phallus, and a small suction cup with hose was in front. "This
has to be inserted carefully - don't move please." Dr. Sandoval spread
my cheeks wide to insert the anal plug. "Please relax Kim, it's better
if you don't fight this. Your rectum is tense - just relax and allow
I tried to relax.
"That's better - just let me slide this all the way up." Then he
separated my labia. "The whole shaft must be inserted in the vagina,
Kim. That's good…" Then the clitoral suction cup was placed in position.
"Now the clitoral suction, that's good." The doctors pressed my knees
further apart to ensure everything was in place. "We have to leave the
leather straps on, I'm afraid - it's important the apparatus not be
disturbed when in operation."
Dr. Sandoval turned on a switch and the machine came to life. My breasts
and clitoris were gently sucked while the phallus and anal plug vibrated
and slowly moved in and out of my anus and vagina. "Now Kim, I'm afraid
we need to leave this on for an hour, at least. During that time several
doctors will stop by to observe your progress. Just try to lie still."
Dr. Sandoval placed his stethoscope in his ears and leaned over my to
place the disk on my right breast, near the suction cup. "Just breathe
normally." He continued to listen to the sounds coming from my breasts,
stomach and insides of my thighs.
"Are you uncomfortable Kim?" he asked.
"Just awkward, doctor," I said.
"This will be over soon," he said. "Just let the machine examine you."
During the next hour about 20 doctors came by to look at me.
After 70 minutes Dr. Sandoval returned and turned the machine off. "Okay
Kim, we're done. Let me remove the cups from you." He slowly pulled out
the anal plug, then the vaginal one, the clitoral one, and the breast
cups. Then he pulled on fresh rubber gloves. "I need to have a look at
you now, Kim; feet in the stirrups please."
I got my feet in the stirrups and he leaned over me, separating my labia
and also inserting a finger in my anus.
"How does your vagina feel, Kim"
"Vibrating, doctor," I replied.
"Hm hm, let's feel…" he said, as he inserted fingers in my vagina and
anus simultaneously. "Now your clitoris…" he said as he pulled back my
hood and felt my clitoris.
After a few strokes of my clitoris, he said "and now your breasts, Kim."
He stepped to the side of my bed, stripping off his rubber gloves with a
snap, threw them in a trash can and then felt both my breasts at the
same time. "Now you need to get some sleep, Kim. I believe your next
masturbation session is at 6:00 a.m. tomorrow morning." He pulled the
straps loose from my legs and pulled my gown back over me. "We'll see
you in the morning." He left my room.
Tomorrow would begin a daily routing of exams for the next six weeks! I
fell asleep, exhausted.