About the special intimate exam at the age of 12
Before this exam, I got no explanantion and after the exam I was so embarrassed that I did not want to ask. Therefore I cannot give any correct medical description of the things that happened. I can only tell it how I remember it. I do not remember the exam as a continuous experience either. What I remember are fairly many glimpses of the procedures that were done.
I remember however very well the beginning and end of it. It begun in the freetime between two school classes. I am uncertain about the exact time of the day, but it was a long time before the school ended.
My mother appared suddenly in the schoolyard and followed me up to a room that was another room than that of the school nurse.
The room did not look like a medical room, but more like a provisory and simple office room. I did not see any medical equipment either. The equipment was probably hided in some cupboard or brough there by the doctor.
Behind an office desk, the assistant headmaster sat, an elderly lady. She raised herself up and told that the school was worried for my health. Then my mother replied that I had a flu a week ago. Then the woman asked if I had had fever, after which my mother confirmed. She then asked if they had measureed my fever rectally, and again my moter confirmed. This beginning and these elements of the conversation I rememeber very well.
Then I had to undress, and at some point a female doctor appeared. She was a middle aged woman, somewhat ower-weight and somewhat of an authoritarian style. There might also have been a nurse present, but that I do not remember exactly. Perhaps the assistant headmaster only was the helper. The glimpses of the exam I remember are these:
- I had to sit down on a pot as a small child and they asked me to pee. I was nervous and tensed up, and did not manage to pee a long time, but eventually it came and a good porsion of the pot was filled with my mother and the doctor watching.
- Then I had to lay down on my back totally naked on a simple examination table standing against the wall. I think however that the table was rolled to the middle of the room with me upon near to the window before the exam began, because I felt partly daylight and partly sunlight shining upon me during the exam. I remember I felt very exposed, but also got exited in a strange way by laying down this way.
- The doctor palpated me very thorrougly all over my stomach and gradually closed upon my intimate zones and palpated there too equally thorroughly.
- The doctor then withdraw my foreskin and very swiftly inserted some syringe into my peehole and injected something there.
- The next ting I remember is that they had put a rod-like metallic instrument into my urethra. My penis stood streight up and the doctor held the instrument in her hand. It was like I was sleeping, then I wake up, lifted my head and saw they used that thing inside my urethra.
- They lifted me up and flexed my legs and exposing my bottom. A speculum-like instrument was put into my natal cleft and that instrument was pushed down at my rectal area and filled that area. The instrument made a click. I did not feel, however that it was inserted, nor that it spread me more open, only that it pushed against my rectal area.
- Then I lay at my back with spread legs but with my right leg flexed high up. In this way my perineal region and rectal opening got exposed. The doctor inserted a sort of scope, probably a sigmoidoscope, in through my anus. This is the only part of the exam where I felt pain.
- At last I remember I lay still with spread legs. Now a white tube entered my anus. I do not remember that it was inserted or taken out again.
After the exam I pulled on my underwear and other clothes in a demonstative swift and distinct way to show everyone that I myself was in controle again.
When we went out of the room I felt very embarrased and hoped noone would see me and understand what I had gone through in that room, but upon coming out of the room, the building appared totally empty for people.
When going down the stairs, I decided just to not think or worry about this experience any more. However, when we came out of the building I got a sort of remaider about the exam. The schoolyard was totally empty. That meant that this exam took a very long time and there are a lot of things i do not remember.
I have a strong suspicion that I got some relaxing medicine just at the beginning and that I slept through much of the esam. But how this medicine was admistered, I do nor any more remember.
I have asked myself if I got an enema as a preparation for the rectal inspection. Perhap I did not get any because my rectum used to be totally empty at that part of the dey. I was never constipated as a school child.
I do however remember that I once had to lay at my stomach with my bottom area eleveted, and my bowel content was flushed out through a sond connected to some pumping-mashine - a kind of colonic mashine. But I cannet fix the memory securely to a specific time. This could also have been a part of this exam, but could also have happened very early in my life before I began school.