I have two speculums, a plastic one and a metal graves. I like opening them slowly, as wide as I can and then locking them so that I'm held open and stretched. It hurts, but I like how it feels - not an unbearable pain but a strong ache. I find it arousing and usually orgasm but as I approach orgasm my vagina tightens and increases the pressure/ache. In my play (cyber) exams I fantasisie about having to be opened slowly,painfully wide, either with specula or the doctor's hand while the doctor reassures me. I like the doctor to insruct me to open myself sometimes too. Am I alone?