Going through a MedFet metamorphosis?

For as long as I can remember, the idea of being the doctor appealed to me whereas the patient role scared me a bit. I feel like, no longer am I overcoming that, but I'm actually starting to prefer the sub role.. Has anyone else gone through this? Also, sorry if it's been discussed before

I have conflicting personas. I only like the being the dominant doctor in a role-play scenario, but I fully enjoy being a patient for a REAL doctor during real exams. It's odd, but it's true. Being submissive in role-play scenes doesn't turn me on at all, and I can't picture myself ever doing it. On the other hand, I turn into an eager sub patient in real life, and getting a physical exam can be very pleasurable. I guess I project my feelings on the doctor and picture doing to others what he did to me.

I classify myself as a switch, so I can go both ways, so to speak. I started out in medfet as a patient but I much prefer the role of doctor. It's what you describe but reversed.

I always view myself as the patient, never the doctor. I've tried some chatting exams where I'm the doctor, and I just don't seem to enjoy it as much. On the other hand, I can more easily put myself in the position of patient. I guess I just like the loss of control and someone else telling me what to do.

I have worked in places where I was, not the doctor but an assistant, taking temps, blood pressure, etc. I always felt competent but professionally disconnected whereas as a real or play patient I can relax totally into where I am being led, what I am instructed to do.

In my fantasy world I have always and completely always imagined myself as the patient. Never even had an urge to imagine or fantasize being the doctor or nurse or anyone in control. Always as a patient.

Now in real life I cannot see myself as being a doctor either, but I do not enjoy loosing control of situations. So it's a rather dubious thing all round.