I do recall back when I was 12 years old and was babysitting my 3 year old cousin that was a girl..and while we were sitting on the couch watching cartoons,she was sitting on my lap..and all she had on at the time were her diapers and plastic pants because I had just put them on her after giving her a bath..she then made some baby faces and I could feel against my lap that she was not only wetting her diapers...but also pooping in them,this for what ever reason started me thinking to my self that I wished I had on a diaper and could fill and wet my pants just like she had done.
I had always liked diapers and I think that was because I still wore them at 6 years old..because I did still wet the bed at night and mom had put me back into them,but I did not ever mind being in them..anyways I grew out of that phase shortly there after and never thought about them again until that day I just mentioned..after I changed her wet and messy diapers..that thought of wearing them did not go away..after her parents got home she paid and thanked me for babysitting and off I went towards home..I passed by a house with a clothes line in the back and there blowing in the wind were many diapers and rubber pants on the line.
Now I had passed that house many times and always someone was home and at least two cars were always in the driveway..but this day there were no cars and no one around..and I still had that diaper wearing feeling..so I went into the back yard and grabbed a blue cloth diaper and a pink pair of plastic pants of the line..then headed back to my journey home..on the way home there was an old barn..and it was filled with lots of bales of hay..I went into the barn..made sure I could not be seen by anyone passing and took off my clothing including my undies,laid the diaper down on a bale of hay and then I laid upon it..pulled up the sides and fastened them as they had tabs that did not need diaper pins..I then stood up,and stepped one leg at a time into the plastic pants..then pulled them up over the diaper.
Instantly I felt like a toddler again..but still did not know why I even regressed back to thinking of wearing them in the first place,feeling like a baby I gave a little grunt and push and almost instantly I started to wet my pants..then with that happening,I also could feel myself pooping in them as well..and at that moment it felt great and I had not remembered that sensation since I wore them as a toddler..I stayed and played in the barn for a little while moving all around and sitting here and sitting there..I then put my jeans back on and headed for home.
My mother was not home at the time and looking at my watch would not be home for another hour,I walked into the house grabbed some other clothes and climbed into the shower,when I got out and all dressed again in my regular underwear..I went and watched television and 15 minutes later my mother returned,she was none the wiser as to what I had done..and all was well..I did one other time grab another diaper and a pair of rubber pants from another clothes line..but it was a very long time later..after that time I never did it again..I had no idea that 18 years later a bad fall would make me a permanent diaper wearer..and just maybe it was not so hard to handle wearing them because..those thoughts of that day babysitting came back to me..many times while in the hospital..take care now