I think back on the things in life I may have missed being gay paranoid or afraid of what females would think about my preferences and trying to fit into the " whats considered normal" box.
Society has placed so many fences in place to curb and channel our thoughts, desires and feelings to what is considered vanilla normal. Every one has kinks.... That is a fact..
I know what feels good to me, I now know my boundaries. This may not be your idea of what's good or whats bad. I will no longer judge others except when it comes to people who do not have the capacity to make there own decision on what is right or wrong. Or someone forcing another person to do what is not mutually agreed on.
Those are my fences, Satin/silky type materials next to my skin feels good. Is this Gay? My prostate being massaged feels good is this Gay? If I choose to participate in making someone of the same sex feel good, crossdress, have frequent enemas, or smell differently it is what I might like not what the government or society dictates.
My wife and girl friend both laugh at me about silkies when I choose to wear them, but both will find something they think I would like and buy it for me then we will laugh and have great sex. She loves the vibrator just above her clit. I like the vibrator on my prostate. Much the same thing except I have to clean out a bit.
Not much different than me buying a vibrator or sexual device I think they would like. Everyone gets a chuckle but then can't wait to "try it out"
If you wish to put this ex-military, retired cop, aerobatic pilot, successful business man in the box marked GAY then that's your problem.
Bottom line is, there are more mountains to climb and see what is on the other side before I take the big dirt nap.
I'm sorry I wasted so much time worrying about what others thought. You don't have to make the same mistake. If it feels good, dosen't hurt your body or hurt others then DO IT, enjoy.
Skybear, wanna talk about it call me 4048569287