During any exam, I get so shy and, honestly, want the exam to go as quickly as possible, ha. With that said, ever the curious patient, I do love to look intently when my doctor is talking to me....not examining me but going over everything, and answering questions, etc. I want to know what is going on in their mind. I'm also wondering how in the world they can remain so professional and stoic, with all the crap they see-especially the gyno. Whereas I get all shy and bashful having to spread myself, exposed, to my doctor, they're just so nonchalant about it. I get it, though.
During play exams, I still shy away from gazing up into my doctor's eyes. On the occasion we make eye contact, I don't linger long enough to see that intensity and focus but I do quite sense it the entire exam. It's a huge turn-on during play, feeling and sensing the doctor, so focused and homed in on me, their subject, and I find myself getting lost in pondering all the thoughts in their mind. I've had the privilege of being able to go back and watch some exams, and, at that time, I do get lost in watching my doctor's expressions-as well as my own. It's so fascinating and-kinda scary-alluring-enchanting-so...primeval-like looking into the soul and I now have gained such sensitive and intimate knowledge that most are not privileged to know.