I hated going to the doctors because I knew my mother was in the exam room watching and the doctor was a very well respected pediatrician in my small town. It seems back in the 70's and 80's doctors did a different exam so I thought but I have learned from others in my town that besides my doctor, others doctors also did thorough exams on both boys and the girls.
My mother is a Narcissistic Mother (which I recently learned) and she had a sever case of this type of personality disorder so when she took me to the doctor, my exams where not of the normal type of exams but for me it was the only thing I knew. I hated going to the doctors office because it was the first time I experienced someone touching my genitals and me ejaculating at the exam, I didn't like the submissive treatment I received from both the doctor and my mother and the embarrassment it caused me throughout my childhood and adult life that to this day, hate going to the doctors, I have panic attacks and anxiety attacks, nothing in my life causes this reaction until I need to go to a doctors office. I'm okay with dentist or the eye doctor...but a regular doctor visit I dread going.
The experience I had growing up and my 1st sexual contact was with my doctor examining my penis and I ejaculated, I have always found it very erotic and a sexual turn on for me that when I experimented with sex with other boys (I am gay male) I wanted to play doctor/patient. It so happens that I had have 2 friends that also went to the same doctor and we would experiment with each other play doctor/patient. In a private sexual role-play I found it a huge turn on when it involved "playing doctor". Before the internet, I would jerk off and fantasies about "doctor/patient" role play and when I met other guys, I would want to act out this type of role play which others found to be very odd and creepy and it was difficult to find anyone that had the same likes when it came to sex and such role-play to the point I thought I had problems with my taste of sexuality. I knew I was gay and I accept that, but when it came to sex, I preferred role playing some sort of medical play.
Once the internet become popular I notice that I wasn't alone, I forum like this and many others and porn dedicated to medical role-play which I found out its called medical fetish (medfet) that I wasn't alone that many individuals from all over the world, male and females enjoyed medfet. I have since met with some and played out medfet role play with others. I the medfet role play situation, I like to feel helpless, submissive and not in control what is going to happen to me during the exam. Of course as I experience more medical fetish, I've learned about many things like sound play, electro play, S&M and bondage all play into medfet and the more I enjoyed it. I also enjoyed being the doctor as well and the control I had over that person I was examining. Medfet is a complete turn on and although I'm gay, I'm cool with playing with females or males so I guess I consider myself bisexual when it comes to medical fetish role play.
The other outreach of this was mother/son play as well....since I had a mother that watched my exams and inspected me at home, the medical fetish also introduced me to being inspected by older mother type women that is a huge turn on or a mother type in the exam room helping the doctor inspect my penis (fantasy) which became a huge turn on and it all plays well with medical fetish.
I believe whatever you experience sexually in your childhood, this carry's over into your adult life and the ground work for what you like sexually. Perhaps one enjoys simple vanilla sex, but if you had a creepy, deviant sexual experience when younger....this stays with you for life and what you secretly love doing in bed. Since we live in a society that has a stick up there ass for kinky/deviant sex and thoughts, its not something that most like to share unless they are hiding behind a computer screen or they meet with others to share there kinky/deviant thoughts and act them out in a safe sane way.